18 Oct 2012

A storm passing ... Bits from my journal.

It's been a rainy day this part of the world, not just rain, but heavy, thunderous downpour that makes driving difficult. Still I made my way to the hospital, and saw the neurosurgeon, followed by Jo's dental appointment in the noon. After not driving for so long, it was quite nerve wrecking to drive through that storm. It also reminded me of the time my car hydroplaned a couple of years back, smashing against the divider that separated us from a deep, large monsoon drain, causing the side windows to break. Yet thankfully, the Lord protected my children and I.

Anyway, just as I was about to go to sleep after a long day, it started pouring heavily again and thundering. Camel our little pooch started barking frantically, and so Nel and Jo went down to soothe and comfort him. They brought him extra cloth to keep him warm, sang songs to him, and played some soothing violin music on our CD player just to calm him.

Soon the storm began to die out, our little pooch began calming down and my children went back upstairs. As for me, I stayed a little while more with my poodle, feeling peaceful from listening to the lovely music. As I contemplated, my heart filled with peace, realizing that just as that storm was dying, so was the storm in my own life. Healing has been taking place, and I'm so much better now. :)  I believe my doctors did a good job, but ultimately, it's God who will complete the healing, the healing of the wounds, the heart and mind. I'm now trusting that He will remove the IBS, and that the random headaches (which have ceased in intensity) will totally diminish, and I know it will happen soon. :)

Anyway, a few shots of the journal which I kept while in hospital.

1st attempt at a drawing and writing using my left hand! (I am right handed) (coz there were needles in my right hand)
This verse in Isaiah 55 spoke a lot to me. About how I will go out with joy, and instead of a thornbush, I shall be like a strong pine tree. It spoke a lot to me, about the sort of person that I was/am (the thornbush), the changes I need to make to all the parts about my character which were just not right. I know, change doesn't come over night, but through this time, I've been praying, that God will change me, help me with my weaknesses, in order to be closer to who He intends for me to become. I know, through Him, I can be better. :)



 This is a 2nd  ATTEMPT at drawing using my left hand!  So this is my first ever, left handed modern(?) art. As you can see, the picture is of people with healthy pituitary glands. (seen in middle of forehead.)  :)


 A 3rd attempt at drawing/writing using my left hand, coz of the needles in my right hand. A nurse came in and saw this and commented "Wow, you did this with your left hand? I can't even do that with my right." haha...Yup right. But it helped spark of conversations with different nurses. :)



 FInally, during one of my devotions, I happened to chance upon John 11:35 which reads "Jesus Wept." Only 2 words, but it brought me to tears. It helped me realise that God is NOT some great, untouchable far off being. He is very real, and His love and care is real..so much so He wept for his friends. He is real. As I wept, I closed my eyes and drew a random line. When I opened my eyes, it was a forehead and nose. I then began to just sketch and sketch, still deeply touched to the core by the realization of God's love....and this was my impression of what Christ might have looked like, when He wept.


 Indeed, it is in Jesus name, and faith in Him that will bring complete healing.

Finally, I have one more special picture, which I saw in a dream. But I shall not post it here. It is as my friends described, unique. I intend to create an oil painting of that, as I saw it in colour but my sketch was only black and white (done in between sleep and dreams while in CCU). Will share that later when I complete the painting.

God bless.........
Martha@poundthegarlic.blogspot.com 2012

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14 comments :

gail said...

As the nurse said, I can not draw as well with my right hand!

Thank you, Martha, for finding the silver lining in the cloud.

Martha said...

haha Gail...I've yet to see your drawings, so I can't agree with your statement yet. In this situation, I didn't have to "find the silver lining.." rather "it found me", so much was going on in my mind and heart, and sstill is. Hugs to you G.

marie said...

Your attitude inspires me as I deal with my own health problems. I have no talent whatsoever at drawing, but I can appreciate your skills, good job. Thankfully the rains weren't too heavy for you.

sandra said...

you are truly an inspiration to all who read your blogs on here .love and blessings to you all

Martha said...

hi Marie, I guess, with a positive attitude (made possible through a closer relationship with our Maker), we can conquer all things. :) Thanks for your compliment re the drawing. haha..:) We expect heavier rains soon, and I don't plan to driving then!

Martha said...

Thank dear Sandra, where is your blog? I miss your stories about Fergus. Love and blessings.., Martha

bioluminescence said...

So, so happy to hear you are well. You have been in my thoughts.
Alex in California

Spilled Milkshake Designs said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your health problems. Dealing with my own issues, I've really come to appreciate how precious health and wellness is. I'll be keeping you in my prayers.

Martha said...

Thanks for popping by today, tx for keeping me in prayer, as I will for you too. Take good care.

Michiko Johnson said...

Thanks for your visits and comments,it means a lot for me knowing from you come.
I hope you having a health keeping for you in my prayers.
Thank fully the rains we rent too.

Kiddothings said...

So glad to know you're recovering well Martha. Take care.

Martha said...

Hi Michi, so nice to hear from you again. Yes, health is improving here. The rains continue, but I love it coz it cools the weather. :) take good care Michi.

Martha said...

I m, thanks for popping by despite your busy motherhood duties. :)

gail said...

Stick figures! That's all I can do! I am just now looking back at your posts not having realized you left comments for me!

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